Wallah I know I should have more goals in life. Bas shou bidde a7keelak la7keelak? y3anee ana busy fil jaam3a wa 3ande shoghul kteer kamen :/
But firstly, I want to thank Umm Sultana at Lifestyle of a Furiously Fab Muslima for posting a giveaway that prompted my post...you can find her here :
Some times you get stuck in a spot where you feel like you aren't going any where... and that's where I am right now. Some of my tests at university didn't go as well as I thought they would and unfortunately some of my summer plans have been cancelled as a result. I was planning on taking a year off and traveling, but a lot of things are not turning out how I expected. I think I'm going to stay at uni for another year wa b3adayn inshallah baru7 masr :)
Goal for the next month:My goal is to focus a lot on school and put my time and energy in to getting my work done, instead of sitting around and doing nothing. This might sound kind of silly, but I feel like the first step to get my self back on track is to get motavated. I used to care a lot about my classes and grades, but that has slipped a way as time has passed...
Goals for the end of the year:
1. Put more time into my religion and become a more faithful muslimah
I will admit : there have been times that I skipped a prayer, got in an argument with a7 and yelled at him, or worn an outfit that I shouldn't have. Does this make me a bad muslimah? I don't think so. There have been times where I felt lost in my life, but I have allways turned to religion to help me through. I am just a muslimah who is trying to get on the right track, and a muslimah who is seeking forgiveness for the past, and guidance in the future. AstaghfirAllah.
2. To help my sister ONLY if she asks for it.
Yet, all the same, she is my sister and I love her simply because of this. I want to do every thing in my power to help her get where ever it is that she wants to be in life, regardless of how different it is from my own life path. And I know that it will be very different. I am anchoring myself in Islam and I will do every thing in my power to stay on the right track. But to those who are not on the same path, I do not judge. I love my sister just for being her self, and I only want to help her achieve happiness. If she chooses to follow the same path as me, I would experience a kind of happiness like never before. But if not, I am prepared to let it go. People have told me that we are complete opposites, and I agree that it may appear this way on the out side. So many times we go out togather and I hear the whispers, "How old is her sister? Why doesn't she wear hijab?" And I will admit that I used to be embarassed by this, because I didn't have an answer for them. Since then, I have realized that I do not owe them an answer, nor does my sister owe one to me. What she chooses to do in this life is between her and Allah (swt), and inshallah she will make the most of it.
3. To quit wasting money
But as time has passed, I've realized that my parents only want the best for me because they love me. They didn't care about price tags and the latest fashions, they just wanted to see me smile. And as I look back at all the times where my parents sacrificed for me to be happy, I know that I will do the same for them in the future. There will be a time when my parents need me to help them, and I don't want to let them down because I've wasted my money on the latest Jimmy choos.
I apologize for the rant, wallah ana moot asifa, bas some times you just gotta let it out :P
Take care, wa m3a asalaama
muslimah on the moon <3